Even after following many therapies I kept drinking out
of an irrational sense of guilt and powerlessness.
Suddenly I received an appointment for a physician after years
living on social welfare without any checking of my
The physician said to me:
"Why you don't work?
I'm going to report that you are able to work".
In that time I moved but meanwhile I felt the stress that I had
to go to work again.
The last time I drank, I was so sick that I thought:
"Now I have
punished myself enough."
A year later I was declared healthy and although I had built up a
successful company from scratch, I felt deep down inside
there was still sometime wrong.
Two years later setbacks started.
My friend cheated on me, my accountant did the same, new
neighbors gave enormous inconvenience and my health was poor by
Eight years I dealt with one setback after the
Injustice was not rectified and so I lost all lawsuits.
I avoided people and lived in fear of the next setback.
After six years I started drinking again.
One evening I walked outside crying out of despair.
My question to
"the sky" was
I will never forget:
"Let me see my
By the consultations, which took place in the years afterwards, I
realized that my powerlessness was caused by extreme feelings of guilt.
It seemed to me that they were passed on me by birth.
I learned that Karma is not meant to redeem yourself about an earlier
life but to do it right in this life.
The desire to drink and thus punishing myself disappeared slowly but
surely. I got everything, my private life and my business, back on
Now I feel that deep down inside myself it is okay.
Her drinking pattern consisted of binge-drinking.
This way of drinking
is from no desire to drink at all to suddenly being drunk for many days.
The trigger is always rather psychologically