The way I lived was no longer acceptable for me.
I had one relationship after the other and changed from work and house
every few years.
As soon as my life became quiet the urge came back to change work and to
move on again.
There was always something on my way to get involved.
During the second session it came clear to me that it was time to clean
up the first relationship which was the one with myself.
I realized that I always followed what showed up in my life but
never took the time to make serious decisions.
She asked me: "What do you want?"
I shall never forget that question because it was the first time that
someone had asked me that.
My answer was very emotional:
"I do not know …".
I was sixteen years old when my mother died for my eyes of a cardiac
My father couldn't cope with the situation and started drinking.
It started with letting go of what I no longer wanted and what I would
The most important and most difficult was to do this without guilt.
I had never taken the
time for my doubts as to whether I could have helped my mother or my
The next step was what I expected of myself and whether this was a
After a few months, in which I felt that both psychologically and
physically my balance got stronger, my life was changed completely.
On a spiritual level I got to terms with the death of my mother and the
behavior of my father afterwards.
His behavior warned me not to act like him.
I know better now what I want which keeps me balanced.
When the circumstances are
determining your life, you live out of fear.
Letting go and move with the flow is living from faith and free will.